I can’t believe that I just posted a picture of part of my home. I can sit in my living room now and plug in the lights and it really feels comforting.
The home I grew up in was not a haven so I have long wanted to create a haven for myself. I have lived in my town home for over twenty years and I have not really been successful at creating a home that feels like a haven.
My therapist asked how I was feeling at home. She asked if I feel better because I am doing better at not letting the people at work eat at me when I am not at work. Her question kept swirling in the back of my brain because I wanted to understand why it feels different.
I believe the difference is that I am better able to see work experience as separate from my experiences growing up. I can be in fear of the people at work from an adult perspective rather than a child’s perspective.
Christmas at work – I have felt bullied into contributing for a Christmas gift for my boss and also bullied into exchanging gifts with coworkers. Earlier this year I told my boss that I did not wish to exchange Christmas gifts. There was a scheduled meeting on Wednesday when they gathered to exchange gifts. I did not attend. Later when I went to ask my boss a question, she tried to force a gift on me. My facial expression was showing that I was offended and I was holding up my hands in a “No” sort of gesture. She then started attacking my personality.
Gratitude helps us feel better, right. I am grateful for the following.
This is the second year I have been a part of the Focusing On Life blog’s holiday card exchange.
One card says, “It makes me so happy to be able to share in this little card swap & wish you and your family a JOY-filled Christmas season.” Dotti
It makes me happy too Dotti.
The following card is from Viv. It may be silly but it feels extra special to me because it came from England. For some reason the inside message made me cry.